The Bible tells us that if you lose your life for His sake, you will find it. Sometimes being a wife, a mom, a daughter, a sister, a friend, I feel there aren't enough hours in the day. How can I be a Pastor's wife too? How can I run a women's ministry for my church? How can I find time to serve anyone else?
I have been struggling with illness this year. My asthma has flared up worse than it has since I was in Jr high and high school. I have been on countless breathing treatments. A few hospital visits. Lots of antibiotics and other medications. It hasn't been fun. It has been hard to find time to care for my family. It has been so limiting.
Yet my life is not my own. I live it for God. I live it for my family. I live it for my church. I don't know how to live life any other way. I wouldn't want to live it any other way.
It is retreat season and that means a bunch of little jobs that often keep me up late at night. Doing things here and there as my health allows. As I have been sick and needing to hear extra from God. Needing love and encouragement, yes even Pastor's wives need that too. I took on a project to hand write out 150 bible verses for the women at this years retreat. So I have been pouring through the Psalms and picking verses that I hope will encourage and bless the women and speak to them individually. The really awesome part is that although it takes up my personal time, although it cramps my wrist from writing, and it makes my neck hurt from bending over the Bible, each verse I feel so spoken to by God. With each verse I write out, I feel so connected to Him. In that I also feel connected to the women that will be receiving these verses. I am praying for them that they would hear God's love for them and His words direct to their hearts.
Sometimes it's just in the simple things, sometimes it's in the huge sacrifices, but it is always true. If you give your life away for Jesus, you always get back so much more than you could ever give.
Matthew 16:25 For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life because of Me will find it.